When Abandonment Becomes The Path
Lessons in Letting Go, Recognizing Miracles, and Wrestling with Truth
To know God in action one must overcome all conditions of the self. Abandonment, therefore, becomes man’s greatest gift when respected.
Little did I know that I was driving them away when it happened. Little did I know why I’d have to lose my cool. Normally, I was known to have had the patience of a saint. Normally, I was the one holding everyone else’s shit together.
Environmental conditions have always aligned with my deepest desires, even in my darkest days. Angels will always show up with messages for both sides. What is true for me is the same for you, even though we may exist on different planes.
I’d already met all my life’s goals before. I was happy. Now, I was just waiting on him to communicate with me. Clearly. I thought we had all the time in the world. Then the world shut down, and he got locked away from me again.
My father’s death following my true love’s brief reappearance and his retreat, then losing my patience in reflecting upon my life—I never would have nor could have believed the truth. I had to live through all of it myself, and continue to. One day at a time, in day-tight compartments.
I have been told it was me multiple times, though I could never fully understand what that meant until approaching death. That’s when all the clues of your life will resurface. Whether or not any of them make sense will be up to you.
I tried telling the ones I trusted. I tried getting help before anything bad happened but they wouldn’t listen. I got ghosted and had to watch it all happen, not wanting to cause more problems. I had to accept. Not all people know humility or humanity. I do, and just like the “Lupus” condition living inside my body reminds me—even in the best of times—it really, deeply hurts.
Miracles occur daily in my awareness as I live in a constant state of appreciation. I communicate with animals, with the weak, with the wounded—without words. Those fearful of silence remain lost. Without peace in the present, rest becomes impossible.
Energy and nature are my primary communication channels. Born haunted and quite comfortable with it, I don’t understand scary ghost stories people tell. I understand science and I understand God. I understand scary human stories, perhaps because that’s where God proves His presence most. I don’t understand the separation from source consciousness so many humans have come to embrace. The soul in love is infinite, and anything else I rebuke.
Aliens on the other hand? Well, there is a logical explanation for that. I won’t go into it now, but I’ve been shocked recently by how many otherwise intelligent people believe the stories. The imagination will accept anything it’s fed strategically or systemically over time.
Fifteen years from now, relatively few Americans will have formative memories of life pre-reality television, pre-internet, or pre-mobile telephones. It’s time to wake up and get real with each other. Tell a friend to tell a friend.
Who remembers The War of The Worlds? It’s all an act friends. I’m sorry. I’ve been on set. Supernatural? Yes. Superhuman? No.
I’ve sworn oaths and have carried badges. I’m sorry if that truth hurts. I’m sorry if it’s still impossible for you to accept. I won’t try to make you. None of us will. Please just stop trying to terrify and kill each other, and definitely stop fucking with us.
Your thoughts and words carry weight. This is the curse of mankind. Few even recognize that they can get off the ride if they want, and can do so with integrity and grace. I’d like to show you how to find that freedom.
A Season of Abandonment and The Gift Discovered In Conviction and Anticipation
Advent invites surrender—letting go of control, trusting in divine timing, and preparing for something greater. Abandonment as a gift parallels the relinquishing of personal desires in favor of divine will, echoing the peace found in trusting God—stripping away ego and embracing the unknown, much like Mary’s quiet surrender to God’s plan for her life.
The second week of Advent reminds us that peace comes through transformation and faith, not through the absence of struggle. Hard-won peace arises when we learn to respect abandonment, see miracles in the mundane, and accept truths we once resisted.
Advent celebrates the miraculous—the Incarnation itself—and what we’re incapable of understanding until we’ve witnessed or lived it.
Your increasing awareness and appreciation of miracles every day will release you from your practice of waiting in wonder for the divine to reveal itself. You shall come to know His message to you in the voice of Your Source, through yourself, as you learn how to actually listen.
Your attachments to and beliefs in the gadgets, labels, leaders, and named protocols is indicative of your progress or lack thereof. Your spiritual development is yours for the taking. You needn’t apologize for reclaiming your soul.
This is a time for wrestling with beliefs. Advent invites us to discern where to place our faith—whether in spectacle or in the quiet workings of God.
Regardless of religion, please answer Advent’s call to focus on what is true and eternal, rather than what is flashy, manufactured, and distracts.
Abandonment as Preparation
Advent reminds us of the temporary “abandonment” experienced by those who waited for Christ, and just as Advent invites Christians to prepare for Christ’s coming, I challenge you to respect and honor the transformative power of abandonment as preparation for greater truths to be revealed from eternity unto you.
He had to abandon Me temporarily so that I could reveal Myself to You. What are you preparing for?